i think am crazy, make myself work for so many company and jobssss till i have no more time to think and how should i react in my so call relationship ... ... well i do like but i feel very lonely most of the time...
dunno why still have time to happen lots of thing that i dun wan like arguement and unhappiness even i make myself so busy in my life ... ...
i think am very confused and tired about my life !!
am sure u wonder how can a girl lack of time still feel lonely...
lonely is from the bottom of my heard and isn't about time... i can feel my heard is sour, pain and empty now ... ... sometime i wonder - am i insane ??
no one seems to undertand especially the one i care about ... ... sighhhhh
been through 2 1/2 yrs bad relationship with my ex am being so phobia in it and dunno what and how should i react de ...
sometime i wonder whether am i ready to go into new relationship ar ?? or i shall flirt around like i used to do for past 6 months ??
2 1/2 yrs mentally abused by my ex make me no clue about life and i was so difficult walking back to my own steps in my life instead of living for others all the time ... i was totally lost my mind and soul which i have to avoid all the circumstances or conflict with him ...
i was so suffering in that relationship and it tooks me a year to broke up with him, thank god... finally i get rid from him and have my own life now ... but am confusing and scare whenever i wana to have new relationship ... i forgot and dunno what i want and how to react ... ...
i think i should choose to be alone till i die ... wakkakaak ... so no one suffer wat ...
i think am just being insane now ...
dun ever ask me why this will make me feel upset and depress whenever the topic is out cause am such a denier ... ...
i dun deserve others to love and care cause i dun love and care myself !!
actually why should i care ?? i wanna get rid of my life faster what ...
i wonder why god like to play around with me and giving me all the hard time to make me suffer ... tats why am a free thinker now =p
gotta start my busy life now lol ... ...
this is the first time i wrote so many words and post it out ...
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